I'm here without you.

Sometime, I feel like I have no place to go, no place to dry my eyes. None. I don't choose to be sad, but actually I'm lost inside. I talked to myself so many times that: "Be strong! Be strong." Haizzz hell, even i try to be okay, life isn't okay with me. 

I remembered the conversation between I and my dearest friend. I asked her that: "Does it bad when i look so ugly, huh?" She said: "Sorry hunnie, but yes it is". And then in my life for the first time i accepted that truth in the warmest way. We huged, we cried all that day long. 

I just really wish I would be nicer, I would be confident just like the others same as my age. I wish I would tell everything I want to. I wish ....

I hope that the way you go, sometimes you will look back.

I hope that everyday I can see that perfect smile. 

I hope that you're not too cold.
I hope you'll notice me ...